#im busy doing what i want for a change

[hinamie]

been in a yuuji mood

[wandixx]

I've seen a lot of different takes on Fear Toxin/other fear causing stuff (Yellow Lanterns Ring or something)(later just called Fear Toxin cause I'm lazy) but here is another one.

Danny seems like he isn't affected by Fear Toxin because his biggest fear is that his accident changed him so much he is no longer human, he can no longer truly experience human things.

So when he gets lungful of fear Toxin, he feels normal. He was antsy before, because c'mon, it's a rogue attack but it's not worse. Or so he thought. Because the anxiety lingers. Not enough to register as abnormal just this slight hypervigilance that makes you see things about yourself and your surroundings that you'd never realize otherwise. He'd realize he doesn't blink as often. He'd realize that if he doesn't consciously focus, he sometimes seems to not touch the ground. Forgets to breathe. He can't feel his own pulse at time. He'd realize people will miss him when he's walking down the street as if he was invisible (people just don't care about everyone they pass by). When he'd look straight into his reflection, he'd look slightly to the left. Not enough to actually name anything that was wrong but just stretched enough to fall on the wrong side of the uncanny valley. If he just caught his reflection in the peripheral vision, it'd be vaguely shadowy creature with glowing green eyes and white smoke instead of hair. Overall he'd be just wrong enough to be distinctly not human.

For everyone else, he'd be just a dude. Literally couldn't find more normal dude than this dude. Will pass as absolutely normal human unless someone is specifically looking for ecto-ghost stuff. Even most magic users wouldn't clock him at the glance

Tldr: Fear Toxin makes Danny perceive himself as some sort of eldritch horror but not enough to make him believe he'd actually be affected, while from outside perspective he's Just A Dude™

[mephoj]

late night chat

[historicalbooknerd]

Like, I went out to lunch with some friends the other day, and while the rest of them wanted to go hang out some more after the lunch, I said nope! Bye! I’m going to the thrift store next door then I’m going home and playing stardew valley. Later that day, one of them texts me asking if I was okay because “I left quickly”. Like bruh, I was the first to show up, and just because I didn’t drag my feet out of there doesnt mean that I didn’t enjoy your company, or that something is wrong, I litterly just wanted to go home and play stardew valley, and I would have liked to do it w/out getting interrogated on whether I was okay or not because I didn’t jump at any opportunity to extend time together

Hate how society has somehow deemed being not available, but also not doing anything else “important” as an indicator that something is seriously wrong. Just because I am not doing anything else doesn’t mean that I am automatically available to talk and hang out with, and just because I want to be alone doesn’t mean that anything is wrong. I’m an introvert! I like and I thrive having alone time! Not wanting to have a 2 hour+ conversation at 9 pm when I worked my customer-facing job for 8 hours earlier doesnt mean that I’m two seconds away from having a mental breakdown, it means that I want to just hang out alone and play video games without having to pause every two seconds to respond to the latest text!

Am I not allowed to be alone without people assuming that I’m mentally not okay? Does solitude and enjoying the company of ones self make someone insane?

[karamazovanon]

rip rodya you would've loved american psycho

[obsob]

do you make enough money from selling prints in etsy to sustain your life? how are you able to afford this beautiful house and time to crochet and go on walks and all of that? i’m not asking for nosiness but because i’m trying to figure out what i would need to do in order to make my life financially sustainable… is art an option… etc

short answer i mooch off my bf <333333333333333

[safety-pin-punk]

yall Im so fucking tired. This month has been exhausting. I promise Im alive, just barely functional atm.

[minivirgo]

i think i'm just fundamentally evil and broken ?

[brown-little-robin]

I'M SO BAD AT PHONE CALLS TO THE CAR PLACE HELP

[watery-melon-baller]

I wish I had some expired NyQuil so i could take it and get mildly high during my 3 hour class instead of being bored out of my mind as it takes the entire class period for all 15 students to present their projects

[gxlden-angels]

Is there a more specific term than "agnostic" for me cause I feel like that implies "I believe in a deity/deities/spiritual relationship, I just don't exactly know which one or how"

My belief is less "I don't know" and more "I think there's the possibility of something out there it's just that it's none of my business." Like if we found out Zeus, Jesus Christ, and Ra are actually best buddies and go to trivia every Thursday and that the Rapture was supposed to happen 50 years ago and got cancelled or some shit and it's like..I answer phone calls at a front desk man idk what you want me to do with that info

[daddy-long-legssss]

i took a sick day and took myself out to breakfast and baby waved me. life feels good again.

[jrueships]

guess whos not going in at all this week, actually

[bluebellhairpin]

I'm getting to the end of my line over here.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

for some reason im really feeling the Queer Euphoria in this chilis tonight, specifically: being so ambiguous its hilarious. there is No label to describe my orientation/gender. like yeah i use nonbinary bc technically it fits but also bc the flag Fucks. if asked, my only correct answer would be "Wildcard, Motherfucker!"

[applejongho]

dunno how to articulate my thoughts without sounding mean but i'll try my best; it's so exciting when jh tries a new color and it's also exciting when he also seems to be enjoying it, but i think a problem in fandom culture in general is that need to have ownership over your [thing you like], in this case, jh, a real person. like you can be sad that jh is losing or toning down his purple hair because it was a good color and he looks good, but also at the end of the day it's his hair on his head and what he wants to do w his hair is his business only.

i say this because jh said in the latest radio station that he is going to tone down his purple hair in a few days, not because he doesnt like the color, but because his hair grows outward, a common thing that happens with your hair when you are of asian or hispanic descent. he needs down perms to literally "put down" the hair instead of it sticking straight out of his head. and down perms can fuck with the color if it's dyed.

so with this in mind, jh keeps his hair "boring" and black because he would rather his hair not be sticking straight out of his head and he doesnt want to sacrifice more time at the salon for color correction when it can just be his natural color. and thats really valid of him, just as it's valid of any other member or kpop idol to constantly dye their hair. it's his choice just like theirs and fans should respect his choice more.